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I am still reeling from the intense two weeks I have been having at work. It's been really difficult and exhausting but I think things are finally settling down. Seriously, irl took over everything. But with this experience comes more questions.
Why?
I know that seems pretty vague; I am still trying to get my thoughts together as I wake up. But the never ending thought that 'people are assholes' keeps playing in my mind. And this is why.
I love my new job. It's more than a job for me as I have said before. It's a career. And I have been working my ass off to prove my value to the company because I want to stay long term. And it's been great because the owner has been giving me several graphic design projects that have gone over very well under time-crunching deadlines (two days; but I still nailed it and am so proud!). So, other than the projects there is, of course, the normal work of maintenance and the like for the fish. There's a LOT of product knowledge to learn in this hobby. Mainly because it evolves and new things are being discovered and tried all the time.
Here is the difficult part; I always seem to have a rough start to wherever I work be it training, being a 'ghost employee' and other weird things. Well when I was hired on board, we were moving locations from one city to the other. That was fine by me even after having less than 10 min commute to bumping it up to 40 (gotta make sacrifices). A lot of the training I had was inconsistent but it's really understandable considering the hectic time of moving more than a thousand gallons of salt water tanks.
So, I had a slow learning start for the job while we work things out at the new store (which was just as difficult). This apparently was not good enough for the other three employees who were working for the store (even though the second newest one was only less than a week older than me in terms of hiring). I have done nothing but try my damned best for the company and been as positive as I can be during these difficult times from store and employee issues to feeling crummy because it was the 5th year anniversary of my mom's birthday without her.
But I will say this right now, if you can't face someone with problems outright and feel you have to talk about others behind their back: you are a piece of shit. And that is what happened to me and why I detest more than half the population of people. It hurts more than anything to have someone shit on my work ethics when I have really strong ones. To call me an idiot because I am not learning quick enough, giving bad advice (literally happened once only because I was not told most puffer fish eat corals), and being lazy. My hurt is greater than my rage right now. Especially when I felt we had all been getting along and I could ask for good advice. Apparently not because I was being set up to fail. I was having to pick up the slack while they lazed about, taking lunches together while I worked, etc. Yet they were turning around and claiming my work. Who the hell does that?! Well, besides art thieves and the like, but still.
I had no idea more than half of this was going on until I was informed by my manager, who was kind enough to explain everything that had gone on and with good reason. Those three had been pushing to have me fired because of this one negative girl. And it's sad because she pushed them to think so negatively not just about me, but about our manager as well (which makes NO sense because she is awesome and one of the best managers I have had). Nit picking at the stupidest things that can be fixed later down the road once we build a solid foundation for the store.
Really when it comes down to it, this girl was just looking to abuse the discount of the store and do whatever she wanted because she believed our manager would never fire anyone.
And this is what happened. Our manager and owner had to be at a business con to represent our company. We were left in charge of the store. When they came back, my three coworkers corner my manager. They gave her the ultimatum: them or me. REALLY?! Why the hell would you even do that, are you for fucking serious? How old are you? Twelve?
And here is where the amazing karma kicks in for me. She willingly let three people go to keep me because she has faith in my potential for the company. I have NEVER had a manager defend me in such a manner. It makes me feel amazing to know that my hard work was being seen and not the lies my coworkers had been weaving. And what's even better is we have this new guy who is AWESOME. He is such a quick learner and so much fun to work with. He had been a new regular and had dealt with my coworkers as well, and it was great when he commented how he would always see me running around and doing stuff instead of sitting down. Even nicer when he said if they tried to come in and talk smack, he'd give them a piece of his mind. We also have another new hire who is a bit serious but he gets along with the other well and he's not afraid to ask questions and double check. Like the other. And that's all I can ask for. Already you can feel a lift in the store. Like a dark cloud finally floated away with all the negativity that has been going on. And when my boss says she is proud of me at the end of the day, I feel like I belong and I have found my niche in life.
So yesterday was my first day off in a while (over a week). Around 11pm last night I get this text from my best friend (pretty much sister and we've been asked before if we were because we sound a bit alike and if I dye my hair red we look even more alike than now). Her bf of 4 years broke up with her. And all I am thinking is WHAT WHAT WHAT. No. It couldn't be true. No way. They just got back from his sisters wedding too. My heart just broke when I heard her on the phone and rushed over to be with her. It was just... awful. Why. He had told her he had needed to talk to her... and that he had always liked her but not in the way of... I guess what could really push it to the very next level of the relationship (which she and I thought was going to happen). He had gotten used to being in the relationship. And it's so upsetting because she really really loved him. I just... my heart hurts for her. And I am going to do all I can to be there for her; so yeah, don't be surprised if I poof again.
People... just be honest. In the end, you are hurting others in the long run by letting things go on or not being upfront. Not everyone is going to like each other. We're all different and have quirks. But lying won't fix anything.
I need a vacation from people.
Why?
I know that seems pretty vague; I am still trying to get my thoughts together as I wake up. But the never ending thought that 'people are assholes' keeps playing in my mind. And this is why.
I love my new job. It's more than a job for me as I have said before. It's a career. And I have been working my ass off to prove my value to the company because I want to stay long term. And it's been great because the owner has been giving me several graphic design projects that have gone over very well under time-crunching deadlines (two days; but I still nailed it and am so proud!). So, other than the projects there is, of course, the normal work of maintenance and the like for the fish. There's a LOT of product knowledge to learn in this hobby. Mainly because it evolves and new things are being discovered and tried all the time.
Here is the difficult part; I always seem to have a rough start to wherever I work be it training, being a 'ghost employee' and other weird things. Well when I was hired on board, we were moving locations from one city to the other. That was fine by me even after having less than 10 min commute to bumping it up to 40 (gotta make sacrifices). A lot of the training I had was inconsistent but it's really understandable considering the hectic time of moving more than a thousand gallons of salt water tanks.
So, I had a slow learning start for the job while we work things out at the new store (which was just as difficult). This apparently was not good enough for the other three employees who were working for the store (even though the second newest one was only less than a week older than me in terms of hiring). I have done nothing but try my damned best for the company and been as positive as I can be during these difficult times from store and employee issues to feeling crummy because it was the 5th year anniversary of my mom's birthday without her.
But I will say this right now, if you can't face someone with problems outright and feel you have to talk about others behind their back: you are a piece of shit. And that is what happened to me and why I detest more than half the population of people. It hurts more than anything to have someone shit on my work ethics when I have really strong ones. To call me an idiot because I am not learning quick enough, giving bad advice (literally happened once only because I was not told most puffer fish eat corals), and being lazy. My hurt is greater than my rage right now. Especially when I felt we had all been getting along and I could ask for good advice. Apparently not because I was being set up to fail. I was having to pick up the slack while they lazed about, taking lunches together while I worked, etc. Yet they were turning around and claiming my work. Who the hell does that?! Well, besides art thieves and the like, but still.
I had no idea more than half of this was going on until I was informed by my manager, who was kind enough to explain everything that had gone on and with good reason. Those three had been pushing to have me fired because of this one negative girl. And it's sad because she pushed them to think so negatively not just about me, but about our manager as well (which makes NO sense because she is awesome and one of the best managers I have had). Nit picking at the stupidest things that can be fixed later down the road once we build a solid foundation for the store.
Really when it comes down to it, this girl was just looking to abuse the discount of the store and do whatever she wanted because she believed our manager would never fire anyone.
And this is what happened. Our manager and owner had to be at a business con to represent our company. We were left in charge of the store. When they came back, my three coworkers corner my manager. They gave her the ultimatum: them or me. REALLY?! Why the hell would you even do that, are you for fucking serious? How old are you? Twelve?
And here is where the amazing karma kicks in for me. She willingly let three people go to keep me because she has faith in my potential for the company. I have NEVER had a manager defend me in such a manner. It makes me feel amazing to know that my hard work was being seen and not the lies my coworkers had been weaving. And what's even better is we have this new guy who is AWESOME. He is such a quick learner and so much fun to work with. He had been a new regular and had dealt with my coworkers as well, and it was great when he commented how he would always see me running around and doing stuff instead of sitting down. Even nicer when he said if they tried to come in and talk smack, he'd give them a piece of his mind. We also have another new hire who is a bit serious but he gets along with the other well and he's not afraid to ask questions and double check. Like the other. And that's all I can ask for. Already you can feel a lift in the store. Like a dark cloud finally floated away with all the negativity that has been going on. And when my boss says she is proud of me at the end of the day, I feel like I belong and I have found my niche in life.
So yesterday was my first day off in a while (over a week). Around 11pm last night I get this text from my best friend (pretty much sister and we've been asked before if we were because we sound a bit alike and if I dye my hair red we look even more alike than now). Her bf of 4 years broke up with her. And all I am thinking is WHAT WHAT WHAT. No. It couldn't be true. No way. They just got back from his sisters wedding too. My heart just broke when I heard her on the phone and rushed over to be with her. It was just... awful. Why. He had told her he had needed to talk to her... and that he had always liked her but not in the way of... I guess what could really push it to the very next level of the relationship (which she and I thought was going to happen). He had gotten used to being in the relationship. And it's so upsetting because she really really loved him. I just... my heart hurts for her. And I am going to do all I can to be there for her; so yeah, don't be surprised if I poof again.
People... just be honest. In the end, you are hurting others in the long run by letting things go on or not being upfront. Not everyone is going to like each other. We're all different and have quirks. But lying won't fix anything.
I need a vacation from people.
Leaving this account
Hey all,
I'm going to be changing accounts and leaving this one. It's tied to too much of a past I rather forget and move on with my life instead of being reminded of the negatives. So if you want my new da, just note me, as I rather not give it out in this manner. And if you find it on your own //shrugs. Just please give me privacy as I may be going into a new direction in my life art wise (metal casting, jewelry, oils and more as a good chunk of digital work will be work related and not placed up till product release). I still plan on my Pokémon group but shifting some things around.
Health wise, I am not doing well. Currently in the
Update//
Yo, so I still owe that vet bill. And despite getting paycheck and paying off bills and needing to feed the pets and myself, still not enough. Sigh.
However. I have a new adoptable account for those who like MLP and Steven Universe; making an original species I have been having a lot of fun doing in my downtime. And I would REALLY appreciate anyone who can spread the word to those who like either or. If I can sell at least all of them I'll have enough to pay it off ;n; But I plan on doing eve more and have a 5th about done to post up once I get out of this art marathon for work. About 75% done with the last image and managed to get more work
SICK OF IT- PLZ HELP
Not too long ago I had an allergy attack and ended up in the hospital.
Yesterday I had to go back again for another issue and it was SO stupid. I spent the night with a few of my friends and had brought silicone-putty earplugs to help sleep. Placed them right (I don't shove them in my ear, oh lawd, not that dumb!) and somehow I wake up and they are JAMMED in my ears. Tossing, turning, high body temp, whatever. I got one out ok but the other NOPE. Took several hours and I thought I got it, but I kept feeling pressure and couldn't hear well. We run over to the hospital (the one my mother passed at....) and wait in the ER. The nurse was someone
HOSPITAL TAKE 2 WTF
Oh yeah, I've been in the hospital for a few days on account I have a FUCKING GLUTEN ALLERGY. FUCK YOU BODY. I LIKED BREADS. Even if they made me sick... Yes I know I can buy gluten-free but have you seen how much a loaf costs let alone how small they are? Even if they are delicious and I will pay for them but UGH. So yeah, throwing up blood and coming out the other end means get the hell to a hospital and don't ignore your body anymore if you think it's 'normal' cause eeeeeeeyyyyy it's not.
So yeah. Have Celiac's disease, bi-polarism, PCOS, migraines and now have to take 10 pills a day. I am getting to the point where I may just have to put
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I have only started following you just recently but I want to say that i'm glad for how your work situation turned out.
because hard working people like yourself, who really strive to want to do better don't deserve to have to deal with awful people like that.
I'm really glad you didn't let them get in your way or stop you from continuing either! I never like to see people get that kind of satisfaction.
especially since they took their spots for granted AND had the audacity to tell the manager what to do. smh, that just bothers me so much haha!
but yes, im very happy it worked out and I hope those ex co-workers learned their lesson!
As for your friend I'm very sorry for her. I have yet to be with someone that long so I can only imagine how painful that must be
but I hope she can find her way and her happiness again very,very soon. My heart goes out to you both
because hard working people like yourself, who really strive to want to do better don't deserve to have to deal with awful people like that.
I'm really glad you didn't let them get in your way or stop you from continuing either! I never like to see people get that kind of satisfaction.
especially since they took their spots for granted AND had the audacity to tell the manager what to do. smh, that just bothers me so much haha!
but yes, im very happy it worked out and I hope those ex co-workers learned their lesson!
As for your friend I'm very sorry for her. I have yet to be with someone that long so I can only imagine how painful that must be
but I hope she can find her way and her happiness again very,very soon. My heart goes out to you both